Its a random Saturday night & Im sitting on a hotel bathroom floor at 12:57am in Clearwater, Florida on my last vacation with my fam before heading off for 9 months. Every once in a while the idea of leaving them for that long is scary, but so far off. As of now, its 48 (now that I’m posting this it’s 44) days away, and that is scary. Tonight in specific the idea has me paralyzed. Ive been trying to go to sleep since 9 oclock and nothing is working, and my mind wont let go of the thought of leaving everything ive ever known so very soon. Something i think every racer tries to tell themselves to comfort themselves in this anxious waiting season is “fear comes from the enemy”. That thought is a fact for sure, but it doesnt really comfort me at the moment. Just because it comes from the enemy doesnt mean its not there. The fear is there. The enemy is real. & he will try and come at you with every reason and excuse imaginable to scare you out of what the Lord has called you to. It’s so easy for the enemy to use the excuse of “your only 18 years old” & “you just graduated high school” & “are you really ready to pack up and leave everything you’ve ever known?” It’s funny too because when this experience is brought up, everyone discusses how exciting it will be and the amazing things I will learn, but no one talks about the hardships we face to get there. I mean I am 18 years old, and I have no clue what I’m doing, I’m just following the Lord blindly, hoping that everything will work out. The thought that overthrows the fear though is this: my God is on a throne.
I know that sounds weird, but its true. Our God is higher than the others. Our God is our Father. Abba Father looks down on His children. He is Papa. Constantly loving, able, holy, protector, provider, defender, perfect Lord He is. So as i sit here tonight on this hotel bathroom floor exhausted from the days adventures and quite literally scared of whats to come, I know my God has me in His hands. He is all mighty. He can get me through anything. & if He has called me to this, there is no reason to fear. Fear is from the enemy. Praise be to Him and Him alone. ALL adoration to Him. He is so good. He is all knowing. He’s got me, no need to worry.
Whatever you may be facing in this season, fear is gripping on, just know HE is in control. He is looking out for you. God is on a throne, no one can overtake Him. His throne is higher than our own, and higher than the enemies. So keep your eyes on Him & the fear will drift away. Our God is unstoppable.
“Since we are receiving a Kingdom that is unshakable, let us be thankful and please God by worshipping Him with holy fear and awe.” -Hebrews 12:28
“The Lord has established His throne in Heaven, and His kingdom rules over all.” -Psalms 103:19
Such a great thing to take comfort in, Our King is seated – we have eternal security because of that. I think what you are going to do is one of the best and boldest moves any young person could make. ???? Big up, friend! Can’t wait to read more of these testimonies of God’s faithfulness displayed.
TREV!!! my girllll. I love this so so much. This isn’t talked about enough and you worded it so perfectly. Sometimes the race isn’t everything you see on Instagram, there’s some hard realities that come with it. But the Lord is faithful in keeping his promise of taking care of his children. I can’t wait to see you so soon
Travy!!! Holy moly girl, the raw truth behind this all. He IS lord and provider, he provides the way to grow out of our fears! So proud of your courage in more than one way. I love you and can’t wait to squeeze you
Oh my goodness I love this!!! Fear has always been one of my MAJOR struggles and it’s so refreshing to see you preaching out this amazing truth that God is in control, and he’s watching out for us, a reminder we all need. Love it and love you, you are doing great things. ????
You are exactly where God wants you… what an AMAZING thing to recognize your fear but declaring God’s word and HIS faithfulness over it all. You are AMAZING and I am so proud of your persistence and love for His kingdom. “He shall cover you with His feathers, And under His wings you shall take refuge;” Psalm 91:4. He’s got you… in every way. I trust Him. I love you Travyn!
Yes!
I am 69 years old and still I experience exactly what you have described. Yes, the enemy is relentless, but I have The Word living in me and that is the truth, and what is it I’ve seen about fear? FEAR = false evidence appearing real! The Word says He will never leave you nor forsake you – that’s TRUTH. The Word says greater is He that is in you than he that is in the world – that’s TRUTH. If I did not know without doubt that He is faithful, I would be trying to hold onto you with both hands. But we have The Word, alive in us, He will KEEP us through whatever we face. I am so full of love for you!
TRAV. Thank you for putting so beautifully into words what we all are feeling. Can’t wait to start this scary, beautiful, faith building journey with you!!
Trav, Amen and amen! Keep running to the Word with every fearful thought, taking it captive because our God is indeed Sovereign and His Kingdom does rule. May He bring you sweet moments to treasure during this last month at home and a growing excitement for what He has in store for you and all of Squad H!
(Katherine’s Mama)
Girl you got this, your God is on the THRONE you are exactly right. God does have you in His hands and HE is Almighty. Continue to believe this throughout your journey and you will do GREAT things for the Kingdom. SEE YOU SOON!!!
Love you trav!! Stay safe out there! May the lord bless your endeavors! I know God has great things in store for you! The best is yet to come! I’ll always remember meeting you at happening 89!!